I took this picture with my dumb phone while at the beach with a high school group of friends this summer...a few days before finding out my Mom had cancer. It was a relaxing weekend and being at the beach I constantly thought of my Mom as it was something she loved. The beach can be so calming listening to the waves roll in one after the other...the clean salt smell reminds me of learning how to float in the ocean with her. I've saved the photo as the background on my phone and laptop and think of her words when we would seem sad about her disease..."We're going to take it One Day At a Time". Lately, that's what I've been having to do. So many other things going on in my private life that not everyone is aware of and I'd like to keep it that way for now but taking it one day at a time is all I can do. I miss my Mama very much and dreading the upcoming holidays. For the last year (and that includes the end of 2010), it's been a wash. I usually try and can find the good things in bad....but this time, I just can't. Yes, I'm alive. I have some people in my life who are supportive of me. I enjoy helping the inmates I work with. I enjoy volunteering with GENAustin. But for the record, I'd like to just go on to New Years Day 2012 so I can tell 2011 and this past year goodbye and good riddance.
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Tex, I REALLY hope and pray that the upcoming year will be fantastic for you in every way. I hate you have had the weight of the world dumped on you these past 2 years and wish you nothing but better things.
I'm sorry I'm slow commenting here but...hear, hear! I know things could be worse but they could also be a whoooole lot better for both of us.
So a *hug* and here's to 2012!
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